Monday, April 23, 2007

Ordering Cacophony

I'll all over the place lately and my thinking is very disorganized. This happens to me every once in a while and quite honestly, it freaks me out. I like order and routine. I like thoughts to follow one another in a reasonable manner. I like connections. Instead, what I've got is cacophony. Ants! Work! Knitting! Gray! Baptism! Books! Whining! Ants again! Fat! Behavior issues! New words! Snuffles! Blech. My general reaction to cacophony is to pick out one or two strands of sound that might become a melody. I follow one instrument for a few bars, then try to listen for a repetition or expansion of that. So that's my strategy for dealing with the current mish mash. I'm concentrating on my weight loss/fitness goals and on knitting some socks. The rest of it, I'm ignoring more or less. I am beginning to wonder if I'm going about this the wrong way. Maybe I should just embrace the noise for what it is. Maybe I should see if that leads me someplace new. I think perhaps my mind, that pesky little organ, has realized that the current order fails to account for all data and is looking for a new theory of everything. Perhaps that explains why I start thinking about what happened at Virginia Tech and inexplicably end up patterning lace socks with a subtext of database organization. So, for today anyway, I'm just going to let my mind go instead of standing by with a whip to keep everything moving in the same direction. We'll see what happens. By the way, the ants are back. They found a new hole. Since Nick was out of town, I became emotionally invested in the ant war. They are going DOWN. Also, potty training 101 did not happen this weekend. Plans were made, socializing happened, and there were no hours on end in the house to spend on the toilet. I'm rescheduling for Memorial Day weekend, pending toddler interest.

1 comment:

Katie said...

I feel the same way lately, Christy. Yesterday I had to take a mental health day -- I did zero writing and concentrated on doing a bunch of stuff around the house that's been on the back burner for a while.

I think there's a balance... I just don't know how to find it! ;-)